It feels like TODAY I know…

It feels like today I know that I am finally happy for Amanda, knowing that she is going to Wisconsin and she is going to be happy. Yes, it did take a few days for me to realize that she isn’t here for me, her mom, dad, brother or anyone at all except Mike. I am happy for her. I just want her to feel that way for the rest of her life. The kind of happy that makes you all fuzzy feeling inside. I know there are things inside me that don’t want her to go but this is her life and I would want her to be happy for me no matter what I decided to do in life. The only thing I ask of her is to never be afraid of what I might think of her when she does something that of what she might face in the future. I have no idea what she may face in Wisconsin but I sure do know that things aren’t going to change here in Maine. I am always going to be here for her and no I may not see her as much as I have always anticipated but that is fine with me I can deal and I hope that she can deal since she is the one that is moving.